So I've been feeling pretty good lately up until the last few days. I'm still not 100% on the marriage front and from time to time that weighs on me. It's a journey to healing and a process, so there are days where I just feel "blah".
With that said, it has been an interesting week. An old flame sent me an email, which I totally deleted and ignored for obvious reasons. I also felt many highs and many lows. Highs??? Well I feel at times like I can do anything. Lows??? I feel the insecurity of not being naturally what my husband finds attractive - dark hair (I have) dark eyes (nope) and tan skin (fake tan). I also see he has thing for legs and short, shorts. Of course, only younger girls mainly wear them. The bottom line is that I am who I am and I want to be accepted and loved for that. He says he does and he loves me and I actually believe him, but I'm still hurt by his choice. Again...just still trying to heal.
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